It's time.

It's time to quit.
Was never good at it, will never be good at it.
No matter how hard I try.
Effort will prove me nothing.

Recap of 2012

The year is coming an end and once again its time for a recap.

This year has been a roller coaster year,

as too many things been happening this year and until now I'm still trying to digest every single thing that has happened.

Overall this I changed so much this year that sometimes I couldn't even recognize myself.

Some people would even feel that I appeal to them more like a stranger nowadays.

But this is because I grew up and moved on.

I lost my dearest best friend of all times this very year,

but I did met a lot of new friends too.

Constantly challenged myself to learn a lot of things,

get out of my comfort zone.

Experience more so that I wouldn't end up regretting when I get old.

This is also the year that I somehow get to see many people's true colors.

Some good but mostly bad.

Placed my full trust on some people that I care,

but as usual it just comes bouncing back like it used to.

But nowadays I tend to bounce back stronger and faster than ever.

Proving people wrong and that I can live a better life than them.

As what I did beginning of the year,

This will be a monthly update of what's been going on in my life this whole year.

Please take note that this is a super duper incredibly long blog post,

so please stop reading if you are not prepared. =D

Let's start from April where I stopped.

April 2012

One of the worst months of the year,

technically should be fun as I had a trip to Taiwan.

Taiwan was great and awesome,

but one news during the trip killed all the joy.

Which is the passing of my best friend of all time, Jeff.

Couldn't really believe that he just left like that without even telling anyone,

but to just leave a note for us.

I was devastated. Couldn't even bring myself to take that first glance during his funeral.

Sat down there for hours basically doing nothing but just replaying all the moments that we had together.

Until this very day,

although I've accepted his passing I'll still think of him every now and then.

Hoping that he's happier now in heaven.

May 2012

Semester break ended and it marks the beginning of a new semester.

One of the hardest semester for me as I had so much to deal with after Jeff's absence. 

Was glad that at least another close friend was there for me most of the time,

and I slowly got through it.

It was also then I really start to put in effort and commitment towards dodgeball to divide my attention elsewhere.

During this very month was also my dearest cousin, Jaqueline's wedding.

Was asked to be the maid of honor for her wedding.

I was so excited yet a little nervous as its my first time being a maid of honor myself.

Overall the wedding went well,

everyone was happy and I'm very happy for the sweet couple as well.

June 2012

June is when the uni is all super busy and active as there are tons of events going on during this very month.

I myself was involved in 2 big uni events which makes me a super duper busy woman this month.

One event was organized by UCSI Dance Club which is called 'Back 2 Street'.

This event was a big success as it achieved full house which more than 500 pax attended the event.

And during this event I was the Programme Director.

Was glad that all these years of experience doing performance events such as dance performances really helped me this round,

as first time in my life at UCSI an event can run this smooth.

Really want to thank to those that recruited me back to organize this event.

And just few days after that event was a major event by UCSI Student Council which is called 'Miles for Lives Charity Run'.

Few months back was recruited by my dear friend Jesmyn to be her assistant publicity director.

Although I had no experience dealing with publicity,

I still accepted the offer as I wanted to expose and challenge myself at the same time.

The event can be counted as also a success as we managed to get around 700 pax of participants to join which is one of UCSI's biggest event for the year.

The organizing committee was awesome to work with and I had fun and learned a lot at the same time.

July 2012

In July things died down a bit in order for me to get back on track with studies and all as the semester was ending soon.

Was looking forward to August as I had a long semester break.

August 2012

Surprisingly August came and went quieter than I expected.

Spent most of my holiday at my dear friend Sean's newly opened bakery, Breadboss Bakery.

Happy for him that he finally has his own bakery shop and as a friend I try my level best to help out whenever I can.

September 2012

Ahhhhhhh.. The birthday month. hahaha

Turned 21 in this very month.

My 21st birthday wasn't really a grand party or whatever,

just a small gathering with few close friends drinking at Changkat.

And as expected,

got drunk but still managed to go to office the next day.

And speaking about office,

September is also when I just started my 4 months internship with Grey Advertising.

Was sent to do account servicing for Guinness Anchor Berhad.

Initially was nervous as I had no single idea of what is going on in advertising agency.

But my bosses were very nice and I learned a lot of things.

For dodgeball,

There was a very big competition going on then called 'Campus Dodgeball League 2012'.

One of the biggest annual competitions in Malaysia.

Didn't win anything then,

but still it was a good experience.

October - November 2012

To me this 2 months went by very fast as I was constantly very busy with internship.

Colleagues and bosses treated me more of like a permanent rather than just an intern which I got exposed to a lot more things.

But also due to the fact that I'm so busy with work and all,

I ended up neglecting friends around me.

People that I care or care for me.

I ended up being in my own world, more isolated than before.

Became distant and even cold at one point.

But slowly I started to snap out of it.

December 2012

Last month of the year,

and doomsday was also supposed to happen during this very month.

(But obviously it did not happen as you are currently still reading this.. hahaha)

My last month of internship,

felt that time passed so fast as its ending soon.

But just before this all ended,

I got a job offer from my account director and general manager to continue work as a permanent.

Was so happy and excited as I really liked my boss and I want to continue working for her.

So as scheduled I will start work this coming January,

which is like in a few weeks time ;)

Christmas just passed and my Christmas was just normal.

Few days before Christmas there was parties, dinners, gathering and presents.

But on Christmas day itself was spent at home moving rooms.

Not a way to spend Christmas but this was what happened.

My wonderful yet crazy colleague Jia Vern and awesome yet cute boss Sue Lynn =D

Lovely pressie from the boss =D

My secret santa this year was so sweet treating me with chocolate and candy bars.

Last but not least, pink Christmas angel to end the post ;)

It's just another few more days til the beginning of yet another new year,

so basically that's all of what's going on this year for me.

What about you? =D

Till then,

Ciaoo ^^

Keeping quiet.

Been keeping quiet lately despite knowing what's going on.
Merely because that its just not worth getting into any argument.

Years back, I choose to only tell my best guy friends my personal stuff as my best girl friends decided to make known my personal stuff public.
I've grown pass it and decided to trust again.
But once again I've been disappointed. Disappointed by such actions taken.
Disappointed by your dishonesty.
Disappointed by your attitude.
But in the end,
I'll still keep quiet.

A letter to Heaven.

Surprisingly its a sleepless night,
despite the tough final exam 12 hours back.

Thought about you again dear friend.
Just wanted to tell you some stuff.

After 2 years starting from now,
I'll most probably be walking down the aisle.
Haha, yeah.. Surprised right??
Michelle Chee, the forever career oriented woman, walking down the aisle.
Things changed. So will my MOH.
Hahaha, this sounds so funny.
You were supposed to be my MOH despite being a guy
(YES! I'm so gonna force you to wear a gown *just kidding*),
But I hoped that you are currently living a happier life.

I've moved on,
so meaning I DO NOT want to see you anytime soon.
Except for dreams of course.
Feel free to find me in my dreams at any time.
I know that you'll forever be my guardian angel looking at me from Heaven.

Love you and miss you very much, J.


Love,
Chee Choo <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

Letter sent to Heaven. To you. =)

Untitled.

Ever since the past few months,
I've been doing a lot of thinking.

My life here for the past 2 and a half years,
it was hard for me to get by.

So many things that happened in my life,
turned the once happy-go-lucky, strong willed and naive girl,
into a bitter, short tempered but still strong willed woman.

Despite everything that is going on in life,
by being strong willed is the only thing that is keeping me from fully breaking down.

Its surprising how people around you that you love and care so much changed into being a stranger.
People that you thought you could rely on decides to just get out of your life and gives you somewhat a bitter treatment just because you moved on.

Sometimes its just too much to bear for a person like me.
Everyone thinks that I'm strong, I can take it.
Maybe I can, maybe I can't?
Don't overestimate my capability, I'm not wonder woman.

I hate being so bitter and matured.
I want to turn back time and go back,
go back to when apples were just fruits and blackberry was just  another type of berry.

New knowledge.

Learned something new today.

爱人不是最好的朋友，

朋友再好也不能牵手。

To tell the truth, 

I've been going through quite a lot these few days.

But then I'm still trying hard to be strong enough for myself.

Life is always a roller coaster ride.

It'll always have its ups and downs.

As like what the picture says,

Take a breath & let the rest come easy. =)

Till next post,

Ciaoo ^^

To you guys out there,

Before I continue on with my 8 chapters Media Law & Ethics revision,
felt like writing something.

Been having this unexplainable feelings lately which kinda messes up myself.
Its like having some torn inside your body that you can never find the exact spot and cannot take it out.
It doesn't feel good to tell the truth.
Is it maybe because of the stress??
Or is it maybe because overloading of information??
I cannot explain.

Anyways,
its nearing the end of my year 2 last semester already.
5 more year 3 subjects and 4 more months of internship and I'll officially graduate as a communication major student.
Time passes so fast.
It felt like just yesterday when I just stepped into UCSI.

Appreciate time peoples.
Appreciate the loved ones around you.
Stop hating and start loving more.
I guess this way we will all live a better person.

Till next post,
Ciaoo ^^

First updates of 2012

FINALLY!!!

Its been like AGES since I last blogged.
I've been busy since few months ago and I ended up just leaving my blog behind to slowly die.
Sorry fellow readers if I've made you guys waited for soooooooo long.

Anyways,
just a current and short update of what has been going on in my life.

November 2011 - December 2011 

Internship with Elite Expo.

Had a great experience and really learned a lot from my fellow colleagues.

Had a lot of eye-opening experiences too during this 2 months.

January 2012 - February 2012

 Went back to Sabah to celebrate Chinese New Year.

Went back for only a few days and had a very very packed schedule.

Have been traveling to different locations every 2 days.

Very darn tired, but then it worth to see everyone =)

 The first thing I did after I landed at KK was to see this fella!!!

I miss this buddy terribly,

and I'm glad that I actually get to meet him although it was just only for a while.

Went for Chap Pa Lang 2012 show!!

This year I didn't miss the show and was very very glad I went to the show.

Even brought 2 very important men in my life together with me to watch this show.

Also very glad to meet my 'second family' who was always there to be with me for the past few years.

Thank you Synergy, thank you Re-up Crew!!

After coming back from Sabah,

I decided that I had enough with my long hair.

Ended up chopping most of it.

Was not yet ready for super short bob hair yet so I ended up with this half long half short length.

But I still like how my hair after chopping it off.

Definitely will consider chopping it shorter in the future ^^

March 2012

 Have been really really really really really busy for the past few weeks,

all of it because of this event called 

International Women's Week 2012

I was the Vice Organizing Chairperson for this event which explains why all the stress and being busy all the time.

But the event was a success and I'm proud and happy for everyone!!

A picture of both OC and VOC.

My dear Jesmyn and I.

Have been partnering with her for a few occasions already and everything is great.

I LOVE YOU JESMYN TAN!!! <3

P.S. I know I look awful in this picture @.@"

Ever since the first day I've known about dodgeball,

I've always been fascinated about it.

Finally had the chance to try it out and I enjoyed it a lot.

Despite being a total amateur,

I still got the chance to play, kill and save.

And by the end of the day,

Our randomly formed team got CHAMPION!!!

Special thanks to Tyler, Jia En, Shon, Summer & Jit Lun for being the pros in the team and keep helping Cloudy and I to play the game well.

Last but not least,

a picture of my initially tired and stressed face finally looking relieved after the event ended!!

Till next post,
Ciaoo ^^
xoxo

A song.

A very meaningful song.


没有不会谢的花　　
没有不会退的浪　　
没有不会暗的光　　
你在烦恼什么吗　　
没有不会淡的疤　　
没有不会好的伤　　
没有不会停下来的绝望　　
你在忧郁什么啊　　
时间从来不回答　　
生命从来不喧哗　　
就算只有片刻　　
我也不害怕　　
是片刻组成永恒哪 ~　
没有不会谢的花　　
没有不会退的浪　　
没有不会暗的光　　
你在烦恼什么吗　　
没有不会淡的疤　　
没有不会好的伤　　
没有不会停下来的绝望　　
你在忧郁什么啊 ~　　
时间从来不回答　　
生命从来不喧哗　　
就算只有片刻　　
我也不害怕　　
是片刻组成永恒哪 耶 ~　
时间从来不回答　　
生命从来不喧哗 耶 ~　　
就算只有片刻 我也不害怕　　
是片刻组成永恒哪 ~　　
就算只有片刻　　
我也不害怕　　
是片刻组成永恒哪 ~


Till next post,
Ciaoo ^^
xoxo

Thank you.

Thank you very much for the wonderful memories.
Thank you for everything.

Because of you,
I've learned a lot of things.
Met a lot of people.
Experienced the world outside.

P.S. I love you.


Till next post,
Ciaoo ^^
xoxo