Sometimes...
I would think back of things that we did before...
Sometimes I would have the feeling of waiting for you without realising myself...
Sometimes being very stupid by doing things that I feel will hurt myself...
Sometimes I wonder to myself what are you actually thinking...

Things have changed...
And it had forced me to let things go before it ended...
And the cupcake surprise was a test I gave myself...
And apparently it helped me made my final decision...
Which I had no choice of...
The anger in me is still here as its only trying to protect the wound in my heart from getting any worse...
Try to understand...
As I'm just trying to protect myself now...
This is even harder than before as its been twice a row someone did that to me...
And the wounds are getting deeper...
This is definitely not easy for me...
As it might be for you...

Siti babe....
I know things are kinda hard for you now...
I hope that you'll be fine and you'll definitely get through this...
He's definitely not worth you...
He asked you to wait...
For what..So that he can hurt you even more ??
So be strong and I'm always by your side ^^
Good luck tomorrow in your exam :-)

Another random one...

Thanks Siti and 'someone' for yesterday...XD
You guys really cheered my up...
And also temporarily made me forget about the pressure and probs...
Thanks guys^^

In another two days...
They are coming....
Ou no....
I don't know what to do right now...
The clock is ticking and I still haven't totally solved all the problems yet....
The pressure is still there...
And its building up day by day...
This few days....
I've been going in and out of the VP's office almost every recess...
And even during class lessons...
Aiks...It feels like its getting out of hand...
What more can I do ??

Very random...

AHHHHHHH....
I feel kinda useless oh.....
This few days have been busy like crazy...
Busy doing what ??
Well...I'm busy doing the foreign student hosting programme stuff...

I tell you...
This is a very very hard thing to do...
Especially at this time of the year..
Where H1N1 matter is also involved...

Just today,
I have heard a bit of criticism from one of the HK teachers regarding SIG's management...
And I feel very guilty now...
Since I took the biggest responsibility of leading this group...
I never thought that leading this group will have this huge pressure...
And now I seriously felt this very very huge pressure....
And I don't know what to do...

Now...
So many problems have arise...
And I have so many problems to settle but so so little time...
The pressure is getting bigger and bigger as the day comes...
And I'm not only having pressure from this section...
Pressure are also coming from studies, families, and even my personal life...
Its seriously hard to cope right now...
It feels like as if I'm at the edge of a very very very high clift....

I want to host...
I seriously want to...
Its just that I really couldn't get that chance to host...

An outdated post

11th July 2009,

This will be a date that I would take note about...
Another date which has a meaning...
I've made this decision quite some time ago...
And I know its a decision needed to be done no matter what...
Special thanks to Skyler, Mckitty and also my babe Siti....
Thanks guys for eveything ^^

Yes yes...I know its been quite a while since I've posted anything...
And its even more late to post about Dance Delight 2009...




Time passes really very very fast...
Starting from the Suffering Tour to the performance night...
In just in a blink of an eye...
Dance Delight have already ended...
I really miss all the practices...
The grueling but very fun practices....

The performance was quite a success...
Although there were a bit of disappointment among us at first...
Due to some people of our loved ones couldn't come to watch us...
But then in the end...It was still quite a success.....
This was my first and last performance for this year....
Although it ended very fast...
But then it was a great experience.....

Locked

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....

Today I got locked at studio's toilet outside....

For quite some time....

And thanks to Summer who at last realised that I was missing for quite some time and realised I was locked outside when she finally heard me knocking the door non-stop when the song stopped....LOL

Realising

Only just today then I knew...
Knew what do you really really want...
All this while I didn't really understand and knew what you wanted...
So things ended up this way...
But today...
I finally understand...
I believe you've tried telling me but then not in the right way...
Not in the way that I understand...
And because you don't really know how to express it so it made us feel this way...
And it took me this long to finally understand...
And it also took me so many guys to actually understand what you wanted...
I believe by finally understanding what you really wanted things will change for the better...
I hope it does change for the better ^^


P.S. Mckitty, haha...I will always remember 'happy thoughts' this thing...hahaha

Dance Delight 2009 !!!!

Fellas !!!!
The tickets are out already !!!!
Do fast fast come and grab tickets to watch one of the greatest events of the year !!!!

These are the info for the event:-

Date: 4th July 2009
Time: 7.30pm-9pm
Venue: Foochow Association Multi-purpose Hall
Price: RM25

P.S. Do get your tickets from ME !!!! hahaha

See you there ^^

I'm staying strong for myself...

Leadership Camp 2009

Recently I have attended a Leadership Camp at school...

Its a camp that almost took my 'life'...hahaha...
Seriously...I didnt had enough sleep until I almost fainted...
And I even got sick during camp...
Everyone in camp just listen to me coughing and not making reports instead...LOL
But then its still a good camp which I've learned a few new things...

So...
Here are some pictures to share with you guys ^^



All the 21 committees for this camp






Haha...The so called 19-year old teacher who doesnt look like one...



The 5 "kaki" who did morning exercise 4am in the morning in the committee's room...



Our morning exercise !!! hahaha

For more pictures,
do go to my facebook to see ^^

My Newest babe !!!!

FINALLY...

After all those months of waiting, saving and finding....


I finally got this babe !!!!

Sorry

Thx Madona for your cheery messages...
Thx Anderson for sharing your feelings...
Thx 'someone' for waking up that early for me...
Thx fellow committees for making my day not that gloomy...
Thx Wei Xin for having all this practices...

Sorry,

This is a word that made me feel numb..
Everyday I will at least heard this word once or twice..

But then when you say you are sorry,
Do you really mean it ??

Does 'sorry' this word is powerful enough to cover all the mistakes or wrong doings that have been done ??

Is it really powerful enough to actually heal the pain caused by the mistakes done ??

This is something that I don't know...
And this is something that I think we should all think properly...

Does 'sorry' this single word that powerful ??