Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Keeping quiet.

Been keeping quiet lately despite knowing what's going on.
Merely because that its just not worth getting into any argument.

Years back, I choose to only tell my best guy friends my personal stuff as my best girl friends decided to make known my personal stuff public.
I've grown pass it and decided to trust again.
But once again I've been disappointed. Disappointed by such actions taken.
Disappointed by your dishonesty.
Disappointed by your attitude.
But in the end,
I'll still keep quiet.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

A letter to Heaven.


Surprisingly its a sleepless night,
despite the tough final exam 12 hours back.

Thought about you again dear friend.
Just wanted to tell you some stuff.

After 2 years starting from now,
I'll most probably be walking down the aisle.
Haha, yeah.. Surprised right??
Michelle Chee, the forever career oriented woman, walking down the aisle.
Things changed. So will my MOH.
Hahaha, this sounds so funny.
You were supposed to be my MOH despite being a guy
(YES! I'm so gonna force you to wear a gown *just kidding*),
But I hoped that you are currently living a happier life.

I've moved on,
so meaning I DO NOT want to see you anytime soon.
Except for dreams of course.
Feel free to find me in my dreams at any time.
I know that you'll forever be my guardian angel looking at me from Heaven.

Love you and miss you very much, J.


Love,
Chee Choo <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

Letter sent to Heaven. To you. =)


Friday, October 19, 2012

Untitled.

Ever since the past few months,
I've been doing a lot of thinking.

My life here for the past 2 and a half years,
it was hard for me to get by.

So many things that happened in my life,
turned the once happy-go-lucky, strong willed and naive girl,
into a bitter, short tempered but still strong willed woman.

Despite everything that is going on in life,
by being strong willed is the only thing that is keeping me from fully breaking down.

Its surprising how people around you that you love and care so much changed into being a stranger.
People that you thought you could rely on decides to just get out of your life and gives you somewhat a bitter treatment just because you moved on.

Sometimes its just too much to bear for a person like me.
Everyone thinks that I'm strong, I can take it.
Maybe I can, maybe I can't?
Don't overestimate my capability, I'm not wonder woman.

I hate being so bitter and matured.
I want to turn back time and go back,
go back to when apples were just fruits and blackberry was just  another type of berry.