Can I ??

Can I be sick again ??
I want to be sick....
I rather being sick...
Although the feeling of being sick sucks...
But then I feel more happier when I'm sick...
Way more happier...

I thought we were making more progress....
But who knew that now I'm back to tip-top shape...
I'm back to square one...
I just...don't like the feeling of being back to that square one....
I want to be sick again.....

I just hoped for a little more time with you,
and not dismissal instead...